Weak Women

Was having my daily blog dose when i chanced upon this entry in Xiaxue's blog commenting about Weak Women. Click here to read.

I myself, being a weak woman before, after reading this particular entry, felt my brain suddenly jump into overdrive, all sorts of comments, situations just popping into mind, planning protest marches with all women wearing sexy bright pink mini-dresses, carrying big signs shouting "POWER TO WOMEN!" and "DOWN WITH WEAKNESS!", all the while giving come-hither looks to the men watching, making them realise that WE wear the trousers in any relationship and we are free to express ourselves in whatever way we want. The procession will be followed by a line of all the men that have hurt us before by being jerks, linked at the ankles by heavy chains, and a label hung around their necks depicting their crime. They will be placed on display for the public to read their labels, to know what bastards they are, for the passerbys to scorn at their previous "manly antics", at the same time ensuring that they will never get another date again.

Remember all the sacrifices that I did just to make my bf happy, without any sort of appreciation whatsoever. Getting a scolding in front of all his friends when a guy looked at me, with him exclaiming that it was because i was VAIN so make other guys look at me. Throwing away all the clothes that he proclaimed skimpy and "ugly". Enduring the sarcastic remarks he made about me being stupid and lazy. Him going home first cos his place was "nearer" and "along the way", making my way home myself and paying the taxi fare while i was at it. Allowing him to go clubbing with his friends, while he didn't allow me to meet my friends even for a meal. Allowing his "god-sister" to stay over his place cos she had "nowhere else to go", and getting a scolding when i expressed my unhappiness about it.

I was so relieved when i finally managed to break free from the emotions that was holding me back from leaving.

Sometimes I see my friends just allowing their bfs to take control and it seems that they can't do anything for themselves. Playing the part of the luo nu ren...I mean, mutual respect is important, but not to a point where what you wear, what you do and where you go must require permission.

Anything that interferes with food and shopping and ktv cannot be forgiven.

I know, i try to be strong, and not be weak...but sometimes you can't help but give in and just bear it.......we are not aiming for total domination, but at least we need to gain the respect, that we are not to be trifled with and we are not born to sit there and just look pretty and open our legs when they need it.

Let's be strong, girls.

i had dreams for the past two nights. When checked, images in both represented that i had reached a new level in my emotional state. And also that i am too conscious of my appearance, trying too hard to impress others..and that I have a new outlook toward life.

Maybe I am not aware, cos i dunno about having a new outlook, or completion of the hidden, mystery and feminine side of myself. But i know that i am VERY conscious of my appearance.... maybe cos i feel that my appearance is very important to me and i can use it to my advantage, as i feel that my character sucks.

sometimes trying too hard to be witty, to be likeable, enabling others to take advantage of me....i know i know. i just be nice and blind myself to all the criticisms, the jeers, the pretences all around me....but its kind of tiring sometimes to be Ms Nice Girl.

Is it so difficult for you all to like me for me?

Do you all dream every night? I do. Maybe that explains why I am always so tired, no matter how long i slept..too much activity in the brain...More often than not, i'd only remember snatches of the dreams, never the whole thing, which is quite sad, as my dreams are all particularly interesting. I believe that dreams are an escape from the reality that we are forced to face, and images or situations that happen in dreams actually depict what you are longing for, what you lack and what you feel at that point of your life.

Dreams are quite powerful, as only during this unconscious state is your body, mind and spirit connected as one. It's like you are in a very powerful trance.

Since we are on this topic, raise your hands those who have experienced a situation that you seem to have witnessed happening before? This is a peculiar experience that we call déjà vu. The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eerieness," "strangeness," or "weirdness." The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience "genuinely happened" in the past[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Deja_vu]. I believe that we have all, one time or another, experienced this mysterious incident. In my case, due to the fact that my inactive genius brain works overtime every night, providing fascinating images for my viewing, I experience lots of cases of déjà vu as i go through activities in my mundane life.

Conclusion: I have ESP. Which means i can predict the future. Now if only i can find a way to be psychic when i am awake.

Whoops. we seem to have digressed a bit haven't we? Actually I started this post cos I suddenly remembered something from my dream last night.

I was riding a motorcycle. and halfway through riding i had to go up a steep slope. Suddenly i forgot how to ride the bike, and struggled very hard to climb up the hill as i seemed to be sliding backwards. I reved the accelerator and slowly the motor began to go up the slope, but i could feel that the engine was going to give up soon. I tried desperately to change gears, to get to the right gear for going up the slope. All this while, was screaming for the BF to help me as he was nearby. But he ignored me. Full of resentment and panic, i still kept on and managed to get up the slope...

well thats all i remembered. so i did a little search on Dream Moods :

Motorcycle

To see or ride a motorcycle in your dream, symbolizes your desire for freedom and need for adventure. You may be trying to escape from some situation or some other responsibility in your waking life. A motorcycle is also symbolic of raw sexuality.

Hill
To dream that you are climbing a hill, signifies your struggles in achieving a goal. To dream that you are standing on top of a hill, signifies that you have succeeded in your endeavors or that you have now have the resources to complete a task at hand.

So i guess my dream meant that I desire freedom and was trying to escape from a situation?And in the midst of escaping the situation i am struggling to acheive a goal? The BF ignoring me meant that he would be of no help in this struggle? hmmm.......anyone has any other interpretation?

I believe that dreams are a sign from higher powers to tell you something; something that will help you overcome your struggles in life; if you can interpret it correctly.

So had any interesting dreams lately?

I really like this song from Jay Chou's new album. Below is the romanised version that i got from http://jienster.com/ , with hanyu pinyin and english translation. Very sad song with great melody...made me all melancholic.....sobsob.....

still its a great song..

退后 (Tui Hou) [Stepping back]

曲：周杰倫
Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

詞：宋健彰
Ci: Song Jian Jang
Lyrics: Devon Song

天空灰得像哭过
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried

离开你以后
li kai ni yi hou
After leaving you

並沒有更自由
bing mei you gen zi you
(I) did not regain more freedom

酸酸的空氣
suan suan de kong qi
(From) the air

嗅出我们的距离
xiu chu wo men de ju li
(I) smelt our distance

一幕锥心的结局
yi mu zui xin de jie ju
A heart breaking ending

像呼吸般无法停息
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
is continuous just like breathing

抽屉泛黄的日记
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
The yellowing diary lied in the drawer

榨乾了回憶
zha gan le hui yi
(had) pressed dried [our] memories

那笑容是夏季
na xiao rong shi xia ji
That smile is summer

你我的过去
ni wo de guo qu
Our past

被順時針的忘记
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
Has been forgotten as time goes by

缺氧过后的爱情
que yang guo hou de ai qing
Love after anoxia (lack of oxygen)

粗心的眼泪是多余
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
Careless tears are unnecessary

我知道你我都没有错
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
I know that the fault is not in either one of us

只是忘了怎么退后
zhi shi wang le ze me tui hou
We just forgot how to step back

信誓旦旦给了承诺
xin shi dan dan gei le cheng nuo
We made promises to each other with confidence

却被时间扑了空
que bei shi jian pu le kong
Yet it has been emptied by time

我知道我们都没有错
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei cuo
I know that the fault is not in either one of us

只是放手会比较好过
zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
It’s just that letting go would make things easier

最美的爱情回忆里待續
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai xu
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory

There you go folks... goes to show that Sometimes Love is Not Enough. Sometimes love just fades away and no one can be sure what the real reason is. So many trials and tribulations, ups and downs, happiness and sorrow...all the tiring struggles, forgetting logic and the need to satisfy your ego.....in the end all we have is...memories; and nothing more.


so is it a waste of time?
Would you go through all that you've been through again even though you know the ending?


I would. Because without all those heartbreaking moments, I wouldn't be able to learn and grow; i wouldn't be me.

1980s ISUZU GEMINI TV advertistment

Came across this in mr brown's blog.

this is a TV advertisement of the ISUZU Gemini shown during the 1980s.

Unlike the greatly computer graphic-ed wowwee car stunts in today's movies, all these stunts in the commercial were done LIVE by stunt professionals!

Kids, do NOT try this at home.

i feel dreadful....

waves of nausea, vomitting, sore throat, cough, stomachache, whole body void of strength.....all the symptoms are back......

i want to change my stomach.