Quote of the Day

"In order to love a living person well, one must love him as if he
were to die tomorrow."

Certainly brings food for thought, doesn't it?

At first, i was skeptical. But think about it.

If you knew a loved one was going to die the next day, you would be so accomodating, and loving, giving in to his wishes, fufilling his needs, as it would be his last day on earth.

if you could keep it up, you and your certain someone would be very happy indeed.

however, you have to keep telling yourself:"She/He's gonna die tomorrow."


kinda takes all romantic notions away, yes?



well, it doesn't hurt to try it out once in a while. =)

...and the leaves rustle past

am at work now, slaving through another production period....

dunno why suddenly feel so empty, so lonely.

it's not the "need-company" kind of lonely, its the "leave-me-alone-well-maybe-yenlin-or-charmaine-only" kind of lonely....


after going through yet another car feature article, and rushing another interview, suddenly, my mind just goes blank and i wonder:

"What am I doing with my life?"


i have great friends who are there for me always, no matter the time, place or scenario. And you wouldn't believe what kinds of scenarios are there....

i have my dream job which i hate and love at the same time. Although the money and hours and management aren't great, but my colleagues take the pain away as we struggle together, making laughter from our exhaustion.

i have no money problems yet.



but i feel so empty inside. so undecided. so unsure of my next move.

the relationships part sucks.



why are my relationships always a failure?
why can't i just close both eyes and not care?
why do i have to care so much, fretting over ever small detail?
why can't i let go of the past and move on with an open mind?
why can't i stop blaming others and myself?
when will i trust again?


why can't everyone just leave me alone....go away........


it just doesn't feel right, and i can't force myself to make it feel right, can I?

i am just not happy. something just feels wrong.




i need a sign.

sick

sorry for the lack of updates....

i am still coughing like my lungs are bursting, although it has developed into a 10min sudden coughing fit after a period of being perfectly normal.

i have blood in my phelegm.

i am sick of work....with no morale to continue on.


my relationship's still in a confused haze.



give me a while ok?

Happy Valentines' Day

What would you be doing tonight?

Just remember: Always Wear Protection! You don't want any accidents, do you?

Back to work

Chinese New Year is past and gone.

It seems so fast how one year comes after another....

Anyway, i was sick for the whole of the holidays, and am still recovering slowly now...

got pictures and some news, but work sucks so not much mood to talk about it yet.
once come back its production period again...

and btw, my boss said that the company wasn't making money, hence the lack of bonus and small ang bao.

But guess what? he just bought a BMW.
Second-hand. But......

Well....



anyway, hope you guys enjoyed the holidays more than i did.

My latest obsession

Guess what?

I finally got the expansion!! Now the Sims 2 comes with the four seasons! opens up a whole nes download secttion with winter wear, green houses, new ways to die and new careers! still have to try and clear a couple of faulty downloads though...wasting space in my hard drive.

But then, just when i got the game, Maxis is faster than me....

Check out what's next:

The Sims 2: Bon Voyage, where your sims can travel to unknown regions and bring back a whole new experience, other than the ones you have in your own neighbourhood.

and coming soon:

The Sims 2: Free Time, where it concentrates on the leisure time of the sims. you can learn ballet, hobbies, football and even repair a car! I can't wait!

i need to find time from work to play more.

sick

im stuck at home, having a bout of flu, sore throat and cough.

luckily i made the decision to take mc, instead of forcing myself to go to work.

the doctor was very nice, said i was under pressure and not enough rest. that i needed more tonics. and happily gave me two days mc so i could rest. =)

yesterday was the first day in a long time i stayed at home the Whole day...yup, no strength to go out, not even for a bit of Fresh air.

but i realise ah, after i slept, i felt even worse!!

stand also wrong, sit also wrong, so uncomfortable....then start to have body ache......die ah, i scared got fever coming....

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To add to it, me having relationship problems again....

i want to be free, but i keep getting myself tied up to unconfirmed deals....


hope i can make up my mind soon.