thoughts and more thoughts...

recently there have been many quarrels and many misunderstandings...

sometimes its kinda tiring to go on.
confusion as to what i should do next.

sometimes the going is good, sometimes bad. its come to a point when i'm numb to the pain.


i wonder; does it come to free will or is it predestined?
God sometimes plays tricks with us.


sometimes i wonder, after so many things, we still forgive each other.



is it meant to be?



all around me, my friends are having problems left and right.
some are familiar, some i hope to God I will never have to go through.


actually when u think back, i have been quite lucky.
i thank God that I have been strong enough to pick myself up after every fall.
or i guess i would have long ago chosen to leave this cruel world.


i wonder, do we create our own problems? or do they really just keep coming on their own?
i guess positive mindset always helps.


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anyway, i'd probably be starting freelancing at Oneshift.com.
met up with Evan for a chat yesterday, and it was quite a good meeting.

the money's not much, but i was just glad for the oppourtunity to get my brain cells moving.
i have lost my wit and flair, and i really need to get it back!
my spelling's not that fantastic recently either...

let's hope it goes well!


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well....i guess i have to just sit back and let things happen.
kinda tired to force things already.


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have to start preparing for flight already....got a Calcutta overnight turn later....gonna be so tired lor...



later.