i am sooooo exhausted.
recently life has been a blur; all i remember is working in one draining flight after another, and rushing to balance family events, friend's invites, spending time and sleep. Of cos everything else comes before my own time and sleep. I am soooo lacking in me-time.
after that horrible dxb/cai flight, i have become so sian lor.
why after so long i still get demotivated so fast?
now everything seems wrong, everything goes wrong.
i need a break.
Sydney later. Til I'm back.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
ooooooooooo!
I'm in love..............
didn't have the price, though...should be very expensive lor...haiz. But i think its soooooo nice! Must go see and try the real thing!
i like.....=)
which one's nicer, black or steel?
was flipping through a magazine and saw this new watch from Burberry!
didn't have the price, though...should be very expensive lor...haiz. But i think its soooooo nice! Must go see and try the real thing!
i like.....=)
which one's nicer, black or steel?
Latest Purchases
Just a quick update on my latest toys:
1: Diana
Bought Diana when i was I Hongkong recently! The vintage looking camera and the flash caught my eye! I just had to have it! My pictures didn't come out very nice though.....need more practise......but Diana is sooooo cool!!
2: Panasonic Lumix LX3
Finally got what I was wishing for!! Its a great camera that takes really great shots, but not very flattering on me though....i don't look very nice when I take pictures of myself with this.....so my relationship with Lulu [that's my name for it] is not yet as fantastic as me and my Baby [my 450D!], but i'm sure we'll get there eventually!
3: Popcam
Most recent purchase from Dubai. Thought it was cute so despite not knowing the lomo way yet, i bought it! Haven't gave it a name yet cause its still in the box and we haven't been introduced.
yep....am into playing with weird cameras now! its a new hobby. Heehee!
of course, I bought 6 pairs of shoes today; but that's another story. =)
1: Diana
Bought Diana when i was I Hongkong recently! The vintage looking camera and the flash caught my eye! I just had to have it! My pictures didn't come out very nice though.....need more practise......but Diana is sooooo cool!!
2: Panasonic Lumix LX3
Finally got what I was wishing for!! Its a great camera that takes really great shots, but not very flattering on me though....i don't look very nice when I take pictures of myself with this.....so my relationship with Lulu [that's my name for it] is not yet as fantastic as me and my Baby [my 450D!], but i'm sure we'll get there eventually!
3: Popcam
Most recent purchase from Dubai. Thought it was cute so despite not knowing the lomo way yet, i bought it! Haven't gave it a name yet cause its still in the box and we haven't been introduced.
yep....am into playing with weird cameras now! its a new hobby. Heehee!
of course, I bought 6 pairs of shoes today; but that's another story. =)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Where have all the camels gone?
In dubai now, slacking in my room for the whole day.
The only time i went out was to go to the crew room to take loads of sugar for my tea. Finished a book, finished a movie [P.S I love you; you have to catch it. so nice]....just didnt feel very socialble today.
Felt lonely at first, but i don't anymore...suddenly. after praying, everything became ok, and i suddenly realised that i haven't been writing.
i have been procrastinating my writing. it stopped after hotstuff; i felt it first at my blog, then at oneshift; then my diaries haven't been touched in a long time.
I used to write all the time; when i was happy, when i was sad. I wrote poems when i was younger, which led to lines of depth that described my thoughts and feelings. I copied words of great writers that called out to me, that I could relate to at the particular time and moment. All these were in my many diaries that no one has ever seen. they contained my innermost thoughts and secrets of significant moments of my life that i could not share with anybody.
I have always been a vocal person, someone that talks about feelings and moods, and I don't hold back much. But i was always the strong one, always the one that fights back and the one that can handle what life threw at me. I couldn't let people see how weak I was. But writing gave me an outlet to reveal my insecurities and hurts that no one would ever understand. It took away the pain and recorded happy moments. It made me feel so much better, and made me loook at the situation in another light. Although i maintained secrecy, i always wanted to allow pple to know what i've been through and love the words that has given my comfort all through my life so far.
it also started my fetish with nice notebooks.
this blog was started out of boredom; a need to express as well as indulge in a new technology. But i was stilted, because I still needed to maintain my own right in choosing the information that I wanted to share with certain others.
I always wanted to write. To share my words with the masses, to allow them to reflect and touch them with what I have to say. I loved being in hotstuff, because it was a dream come true for me. Unfortunately, the commercialisation of the industry as well as certain events drained me, and with that, it was gone. The passion, the creativity, the wit; all gone.
I couldn't write anymore.
All that came out, in my blog, in my diaries, were all crap. Something that anyone could do. I used to be able to make people laugh and cry with what I wrote. I couldn't do it anymore. I became lazy and i think i just gave up.
but now, suddenly, I write this. I can feel it coming back. I want to try again.
I want to be Melissa again.
Stay tuned.
The only time i went out was to go to the crew room to take loads of sugar for my tea. Finished a book, finished a movie [P.S I love you; you have to catch it. so nice]....just didnt feel very socialble today.
Felt lonely at first, but i don't anymore...suddenly. after praying, everything became ok, and i suddenly realised that i haven't been writing.
i have been procrastinating my writing. it stopped after hotstuff; i felt it first at my blog, then at oneshift; then my diaries haven't been touched in a long time.
I used to write all the time; when i was happy, when i was sad. I wrote poems when i was younger, which led to lines of depth that described my thoughts and feelings. I copied words of great writers that called out to me, that I could relate to at the particular time and moment. All these were in my many diaries that no one has ever seen. they contained my innermost thoughts and secrets of significant moments of my life that i could not share with anybody.
I have always been a vocal person, someone that talks about feelings and moods, and I don't hold back much. But i was always the strong one, always the one that fights back and the one that can handle what life threw at me. I couldn't let people see how weak I was. But writing gave me an outlet to reveal my insecurities and hurts that no one would ever understand. It took away the pain and recorded happy moments. It made me feel so much better, and made me loook at the situation in another light. Although i maintained secrecy, i always wanted to allow pple to know what i've been through and love the words that has given my comfort all through my life so far.
it also started my fetish with nice notebooks.
this blog was started out of boredom; a need to express as well as indulge in a new technology. But i was stilted, because I still needed to maintain my own right in choosing the information that I wanted to share with certain others.
I always wanted to write. To share my words with the masses, to allow them to reflect and touch them with what I have to say. I loved being in hotstuff, because it was a dream come true for me. Unfortunately, the commercialisation of the industry as well as certain events drained me, and with that, it was gone. The passion, the creativity, the wit; all gone.
I couldn't write anymore.
All that came out, in my blog, in my diaries, were all crap. Something that anyone could do. I used to be able to make people laugh and cry with what I wrote. I couldn't do it anymore. I became lazy and i think i just gave up.
but now, suddenly, I write this. I can feel it coming back. I want to try again.
I want to be Melissa again.
Stay tuned.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Lonely
Feeling kinda unsettled...and kinda down...
feeling kinda.....lonely.
i need you.
well, off to work.
feeling kinda.....lonely.
i need you.
well, off to work.
Monday, July 06, 2009
back to work
have had a lovely long break that seemed to last forever! Went to bangkok, then hongkong...
But i think i nvr spend enough time with the ones at home. Kinda regret missing FD cos it would have been great being there with the usual suspects....hk wasn't as great as i thought it would be.
I guess i was short of the right company? Somewhere lost? Hmmmm......
Anyway starting work tml early morning....KUL turn out of all things.
Night.
But i think i nvr spend enough time with the ones at home. Kinda regret missing FD cos it would have been great being there with the usual suspects....hk wasn't as great as i thought it would be.
I guess i was short of the right company? Somewhere lost? Hmmmm......
Anyway starting work tml early morning....KUL turn out of all things.
Night.
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