new new!!

i have new gadgets!

dun get the wrong idea yet...i'm horribly broke at this moment, trying to make a two-digit balance bank account last til payday, which is on the 7th...which is unfortunately almost two weeks from now.

my last pay was to pay off the Tokyo, what i bought for tokyo, my handphone bills and what i owed my mother.

so i'm officially broke.

but suddenly i have two new gadgets, thanks to my daddy!

firstly, i got a Sony PSP Slim!

apparantly he got it cheap. i don't care! it's free and it's mine!!!

i really wanted red. but they didn't have stock. so i chose white instead.

kinda common, but i figured i could always zhng my PSP with stickers or i could spray it.

next, my dad passed me the iPhone!

at first i just wanted to play with it for the day.

then after much trouble for the whole day, i told my dad it was not user-friendly, with no MMS, redundant BlueTooth that can't send or receive pics or songs, no sms forwarding...not to mention the small buttons, and the difficulty in using it. and me being so clumsy, i was so afraid i would scratch it!

Then i said but if he give me i take lah.

then he said ok lor.

-_-

i got a shock! cos i wasn't really thinking about changing my mobile phone.

then my dad already told the guy who originally wanted to buy that iPhone that I wanted it.

so i was stuck with it! *pengz*

worst thing, i found out about all the faults after that!

but now, after two days of using the phone i got stuck with, i fell in love.

firstly, its still quite rare, so i took to holding it in my hands whenever i go out in public. I feel like a mini-celebrity as people recognise the gadget in my hands and go "Wah, iPhone ah!!!"

secondly, i discovered the world of third-party application downloads. Enough said.

i am a happy girl. =)

tired...

My horoscope today says:

Worrying about unplanned obstacles is a waste of time. Appreciate the time you have now as a couple, or work together as a team to overcome problems as they arise, not before.

hmm...i guess that's quite true ya?
i do tend to keep thinking of the negative side of stuff...


anyway just went through yet another production period..
but this time, we were sort of production-ing the whole freaking month.


i really feel like getting away and taking a break.
but....work still goes on.



so tired.

shattered dreams

have you ever felt so low that nothing in the world would make it right?
I have.

have you ever cared about somebody so much it made you cry?
I have.

have you ever missed someone so much you can't sleep at night?
I have.

have you ever given up everything, just to be with someone?
I have.

have you ever found out something that makes the tears just flow non-stop?
I have.

have you ever just spent the whole day sitting there, staring into space, feeling your heart break over and over?
I have.

have you ever thought you found the One and gave up everything, just to try?
I have.

have you ever felt your heart break and heard all the shattered pieces scatter?
I have.

have you ever cried till you can't cry no more, but you still hurt?
I have.

have you ever felt the pain of giving someone you care about up, when you really don't want to at all, just so that others would be happy?
I have.



and all in one day.




i hurt.

sleepy tuesday

i'm in the office of hell, with a mountain-load of work piling up, and no mood to do it.

i'm so sleepy and tired, with a backache. It doesn't help that i feel so grumpy today.

i want to go home.


*

hey, have you ever thought that there's a particular person in this world, that is The One?

someone that, doesn't matter how long you know each other, you just know that you want to be with that person, just directly abduct them and make them marry you, to live happily ever after?

someone whose faults you can live with, whom you can list the things that you love about them, and you just know that it is almost perfect?

someone who you are genuinely happy with, no matter what?

I believe.


Just that maybe.................. I don't think i will be able to meet with that person in this life.




Let's hope i'm wrong ya?

Quote of the Day

"In order to love a living person well, one must love him as if he
were to die tomorrow."

Certainly brings food for thought, doesn't it?

At first, i was skeptical. But think about it.

If you knew a loved one was going to die the next day, you would be so accomodating, and loving, giving in to his wishes, fufilling his needs, as it would be his last day on earth.

if you could keep it up, you and your certain someone would be very happy indeed.

however, you have to keep telling yourself:"She/He's gonna die tomorrow."


kinda takes all romantic notions away, yes?



well, it doesn't hurt to try it out once in a while. =)

...and the leaves rustle past

am at work now, slaving through another production period....

dunno why suddenly feel so empty, so lonely.

it's not the "need-company" kind of lonely, its the "leave-me-alone-well-maybe-yenlin-or-charmaine-only" kind of lonely....


after going through yet another car feature article, and rushing another interview, suddenly, my mind just goes blank and i wonder:

"What am I doing with my life?"


i have great friends who are there for me always, no matter the time, place or scenario. And you wouldn't believe what kinds of scenarios are there....

i have my dream job which i hate and love at the same time. Although the money and hours and management aren't great, but my colleagues take the pain away as we struggle together, making laughter from our exhaustion.

i have no money problems yet.



but i feel so empty inside. so undecided. so unsure of my next move.

the relationships part sucks.



why are my relationships always a failure?
why can't i just close both eyes and not care?
why do i have to care so much, fretting over ever small detail?
why can't i let go of the past and move on with an open mind?
why can't i stop blaming others and myself?
when will i trust again?


why can't everyone just leave me alone....go away........


it just doesn't feel right, and i can't force myself to make it feel right, can I?

i am just not happy. something just feels wrong.




i need a sign.

sick

sorry for the lack of updates....

i am still coughing like my lungs are bursting, although it has developed into a 10min sudden coughing fit after a period of being perfectly normal.

i have blood in my phelegm.

i am sick of work....with no morale to continue on.


my relationship's still in a confused haze.



give me a while ok?

Happy Valentines' Day

What would you be doing tonight?

Just remember: Always Wear Protection! You don't want any accidents, do you?

Back to work

Chinese New Year is past and gone.

It seems so fast how one year comes after another....

Anyway, i was sick for the whole of the holidays, and am still recovering slowly now...

got pictures and some news, but work sucks so not much mood to talk about it yet.
once come back its production period again...

and btw, my boss said that the company wasn't making money, hence the lack of bonus and small ang bao.

But guess what? he just bought a BMW.
Second-hand. But......

Well....



anyway, hope you guys enjoyed the holidays more than i did.

My latest obsession

Guess what?

I finally got the expansion!! Now the Sims 2 comes with the four seasons! opens up a whole nes download secttion with winter wear, green houses, new ways to die and new careers! still have to try and clear a couple of faulty downloads though...wasting space in my hard drive.

But then, just when i got the game, Maxis is faster than me....

Check out what's next:

The Sims 2: Bon Voyage, where your sims can travel to unknown regions and bring back a whole new experience, other than the ones you have in your own neighbourhood.

and coming soon:

The Sims 2: Free Time, where it concentrates on the leisure time of the sims. you can learn ballet, hobbies, football and even repair a car! I can't wait!

i need to find time from work to play more.

sick

im stuck at home, having a bout of flu, sore throat and cough.

luckily i made the decision to take mc, instead of forcing myself to go to work.

the doctor was very nice, said i was under pressure and not enough rest. that i needed more tonics. and happily gave me two days mc so i could rest. =)

yesterday was the first day in a long time i stayed at home the Whole day...yup, no strength to go out, not even for a bit of Fresh air.

but i realise ah, after i slept, i felt even worse!!

stand also wrong, sit also wrong, so uncomfortable....then start to have body ache......die ah, i scared got fever coming....

*

To add to it, me having relationship problems again....

i want to be free, but i keep getting myself tied up to unconfirmed deals....


hope i can make up my mind soon.

..and life comes to a standstill

received in my email on 30/01/08:

"With immediate effect, "MSN Messenger" will NOT be allowed in this office,the service will be removed on coming Thursday - 31/1, from all office computer.

Any violation will face $100 Penalty, for the benefit for Office Funds."


haiz..

Tokyo Auto Salon Part 1

sorry for the late update, cos i took a whole day to edit and post up these pictures...

*WARNING: LONG POST*

The second day we all woke early, in anticipation of the day's itinerary, which was the TOKYO AUTO SALON 2008!!

We went over, got our press passes and went in. These press passes opened the door to a lot of things, and you had priority over taking pics or asking questions, etc.

The models usually looked straight at you and posed for you...i had no choice but to take pictures of them when i really wanted the car instead....

At the same time, Gran Turismo 5 was also being launched in the foyer! they set up a whole race arcade thing, complete with real recaro seats, steering wheel and pedals all, plus a custom made frame to hold all these, stimulating a real race. damn chio lor. I was tempted to steal one.

of cos the Playstation3 was a plus.
After hanging around outside, making last minute toilet breaks and filling our stomachs, we finally stepped into the hall:

Feast your eyes on the cars, people.

HKS new muffler. There is an automatic stopper that acts as a silencer when you need it!

I want!!!

The new Skyline GTR above; they were all over the place. Whilst in Singapore, its still a rarity.

chio right?!?!
RE Amemiya's full carbon-fibre bodied RX-7

New Impreza, i don't really like it, do you?

Me and the new Impreza, just to confirm that I'm there.


GTR engine bay
Actually my photography skill not bad hor.

The bikes were so gorgeous!! They even have I.C.E under the seat!!dunno for what also, maybe the vibration is nice for your butt??

My tee koh colleague caught in the act of taking pictures of the models.

I really like this pic.
Like behind the scenes hor

Below is the chioest model that I saw in the show.

Sweet and pretty.....slurp.

My new love, the Audi R8!!

Also all over the place.... it costs a freaking half a milllion in Singapore but only $198,000 in Japan

Matte Black BMW

modded up Evolution X






I fell in love with the new Mazda Demio!

Kansai did it up really nicely.
This one scared night time cannot see.

Cherry Blossom Bride Seat



I really like the way they display their goods.

So original, so creative.

Unlike Singapore, like lelong lidat.

Swift Sport

Look at the GTO's engine!!
I officially declare this is my new baby.

I'm such a car slut.

I especially liked this decal from Greddy.

Look at the size of the two turbos!!!!
close up
I was wondering if the fella's brakes were able to tahan such a powerful car or not, so i took a peek:

wah unique disc brakes wor.

Check out the interior. Simi mah bo.

This model neh neh very big
this one also

New Honda F154SC!

I call it FISH cos i kept thinking that the name looks like fish heheehee

Its actually a Supercharged Honda Fit.

S2000!
J's Racing new designs

My favourite!!

Full Chrome Rotora Brake Kit

I tell you ah, all these photographers really go there to shoot the models one.

Wherever there are models around, there would be a crowd of photographers.

Haiz

This one very chio.

But i think the breasts fake one.

Well, that's only the first day.

Wait til i upload the pics for the second day. it'll take a while.