exhausted

i'm back from the Porsche event.
it was tiring but really fun!
will elaborate when i get the pictures.

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with all the flurry yesterday, i felt much better, as i didnt have much time to think about him.
he did appear in my mind lots; but i pushed the memories away.

i was thinking, that i shouldn't have behaved the way i did the other night.
should have controlled my emotions.
but i was too hurt and disappointed to do so..

his silence cuts through my soul and i hurt every second....but he will never know it.
i will never be his first priority.


as long as he is happy.

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watched Sex and the City the other night.
yoohoo story of my life.

i could feel the sadness streaming through me. i was trying to hold the tears in but i couldn't.

its all so familiar...so so familiar...


charging up memories that i tried so hard to forget.


i wanna watch it again. it helps me cry.

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i will try to get on with my life.


everything happens for a reason i guess.



i can just hope.....and pray.