Lousy Week

it was a horrible week.

first my grandmother passed away.

then i heard some stuff that made me so upset.
my heart aches.

that morning, i dropped my compact on the floor.
it shattered and all the bits of pressed powder was all over the floor.

i was crying when i cleaned it up.

christine was mean to me; kinda.
i was trying to tell her some stuff cos i was feeling down, then she made some unfeeling comment.

i almost cried; and ignored her cos i would either burst into tears or lose my temper.



it was a trying week for me.
i'm so drained.


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a weird thing happened.

my mum called and asked me if i lit a joss stick for the alter today.
i didn't.

she came home to find that a joss stick was there;
but it was lit UPSIDE-DOWN.

she was the only one who lit a joss stick today.
and was cracking her head to remember if she accidently lit it wrongly.


alex said it might be a sign that my grandma visited us and left a mark.
it was the seventh day of her passing.
natural she came home for the last time cos she lived here.


my goosebumps stood up.

but its my own grandma, anyway.


i seriously hope tomorrow is a better day.