Thursday, March 16, 2006

let me out! let me out!!

Finally there's only three days till I fly off to Bangkok....but the whole family's so paranoid cos of the political thingy.....telling me to reconsider not going cos apparently the Thais have a strong dislike of Singaporeans now with all the Thaksin thingy and all......Which got me thinking.......since when have i put my life in danger?

the closest i got to a dangerous situation was maybe holding my head underwater for a longer time then i could stand.....im the one with the most daring character, but its only in the actions i do and the things that i say...which usually have very bad results. Usually choosing the safer path and right way of life, am i lucky because I have people who care enough to worry for my welfare, in the process stopping me from doing things that I really want to do, leading me to be the introverted, everything-also-scared-unless-got-kaki person that i am now? Since when have i really gone out and done the things that my mind was instigating me to do? To do something unconventional, something that i will enjoy but is just afraid of breaking societal expectations, risking being branded....

i know everyone worries about me, but i'm not likely to be

1. stabbed while walking,

2. raped while going home alone at night,

3. run over by a car when crossing the road,

4. drugged when having drinks without Him around

or whatever nonsense they can come up with.....i know that these are dangerous times, but i should learn to take care of myself right? i can't live a sheltered life forever right?

When clubbing, I really am tempted to go up on the stage and show off a few of my moves[*ahem*] , as well as have a go on the pole provided. But the Boyfriend stops me, apparently its "very cheap" and i'd "let all the guys see me" or something like that..........

for example, when i wanted to go camping with friends, my mum exclaimed in a kua zhang high-pitched, almost-hysterial voice:

"AFTER PEOPLE KILL YOU AH!!"

Am i destined to forever remain in my comfort zone because no one will let me out of my cage?

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