a penny for my thoughts

Yesterday met up with Dongli and Yenlin...long time since the three of us came out together without significant other halves that we were permanantly attached to most of the time. Had a nice chat about relationships and aims in life. All the time we were complaining about our other half...mostly me.....

This got me thinking, am i really discontented with my life? Why? Is it really that bad? Somehow I seem to get myself in relationships with guys that control me.....is that a subconscious thing or do i jus enjoy being the "Xiao Nu Ren" or do i enjoy being miserable? But its not that im THAT miserable...im happy but not, im content but not. I'm just confusing myself.

But im happy and i know it! But i just want to find things to complain about....like i'm determined to find the flaw in my otherwise almost-perfect relationship.

Dongli seems to be able to adapt and basically just ignore the situation rather than create conflict.i wish i could do that. Life would be so much simpler and happier if everyone just ignored and accepted. Me being the impulsive person i am will just jump to conclusions and start making a fuss...its very mentally torturing to have to think of so many things at the same thing. that explains all my headaches.

dun particularly feel very literary today.