somethings are just not worth waiting for

sorry again for the lack of updates....seeing the difference between the post dates you should get an idea of how busy i am recently.by the time i get home i only want to lie down and sleep...i conk out as soon as my head touches the pillow! which is a vast difference from last time, when i can spend a few hours tossing and turning and thinking of all sorts of crap.

was just thinking of a few sad moments previously....and i realised that no matter how much i have changed [or feel i've changed], part of my character still stubbornly holds on. I still hold on to useless hope and pray that things will turn out differently, but it still follows the same path in the end....so why do we still have that hope that the same situation might take on a different turn? i'm still direct, tactless, impulsive, speak without thinking.........and i still tend to offend people.but its part of who i am, and no matter how terrible and hurting my comment are, i don't mean it that way......its not that i dun phrase it in a better way, i just dunno how. i lose a lot of friends in that fashion,cos i'm just being who i am.

Why do i have to force myself to be someone else when no one does the same for me?


so if you are a friend, understand me. if you are a friend, tell me what u like and dislike about me....i'd appreciate it.

that which is beautiful, will always be beautiful.....with some help.

Just another useless self-praise post:


Every three months[sometimes four], my hair will suddenly look terrible to me and i just have to do something to it; be it dyeing, treatment, hair cut or change of hair style. I can hear my hair whispering: "Meddle with me! I'm out of shape! Do something! Anything!"

Unable to resist the anguished cries of my hair, which was indeed looking a bit worn out [xin li zhuo yong].....i went for a haircut.


I think my hairdresser was in a bad mood lor....or she just wasn't herself, or i guess we were just too comfortable with each other........i suggested treatment, highlighting, rebonding, complained about my hair texture and cut.......i should have known it when she seemed out of sorts, unlike her usual cheery self, complaining about her late nights cos of her baby......... instead of doing anything for my hair, she gave me *gulp* A Bad HairCut. totally ignoring what i had requested............*sobsob*


Okay, maybe it wasn't that bad.i still look my usual chio self...just that i wasnt happy about her not doing treatment for me...she gave me the impression that she was lazy....i too chin cai already lah......she know that when she say dun wan, i wun ask so much lor......and then i not used to my haircut lor......and the texture still quite bad due to my previous dyeings and all....but i distinctly heard her mention that she will do treatment for me...but after my hair cut, she just nvr say anything and directly move to the next customer lor.......!


tai guo fen le.....


so the very next day [yesterday], i was desperate;......i had to do something. my hair was terrible looking lor........*whisper*i went to do rebond and treatment at the Other Salon.

the $140 was the most worth it out of everything i ever spent before.

Before:



note the newly-cut fringe, the frizziness, the lack of shine and the sad face..........how can my beauty show when my hair mei ting hua?

After 4hrs of sitting in the salon until my pi gu xioxio.....i emerged a new person.



doesn't it just look more sleek, soft, shiny, so piao piao ran??? look at the back view:



so straight, so tidy, so shiny.......so CHIO RIGHT?!
so satisfied. although cant tie, cant put behind ear, cant clip.....

the road to perfection is tough; but i will perservere...who's with me?

apologies.....

finally i managed to finish editing bangkok photos.....but the problem is.......i made a mistake in dimensions and they are all TOO DARN SMALL!!!

i tried just using them....but i know you all are just dying to see beautiful me, so small pictures of such a chio bu like me will not satisfy your craving for greatness, so i have decided to redo them again although it would take a longer time and will eat into my already busy schedule.

But i am willing to sacrifice! So keep waiting people! i will do it asap!