Travelling Frenzy

am in Johannesburg now.

wonder how's everything going back home? it's tough being so far away everytime.


will be going direct to bangkok when i touchdown on 26th! lots of shopping and some sightseeing [well mostly shopping]!! It's gonna be a great 4 days! i just hope i will remember to bring what i should be bringing cos it would be a rushed packing! gonna be so tired somemore cos no rest after my 10hr flight home....well, last minute plans are the best!

I also have to plan my trip to Hongkong for Cedrick's imprompto birthday celebration. wonder if i have enough time to book my flight and hotel lor. already asked charmaine to check for me if she has the time so save me some time also. but also not confirm i going cos of the H1N1 thingy going on there......haiyo headache.

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I love making my own decisions without having to ask for permission or fighting to do what I want. Love to make last minute plans without worrying about upsetting anybody or having to have a reason to do what I want to do. Love not having to deal with the insecurity of others.

.....but now, I have to deal with insecurities of my own. i trust, but i doubt....and that's so sad cos the doubt gnaws at my heart and creates a funny feeling inside....i have to learn to trust again.....but its so hard to ignore lor....


haiz.





how lidat?

haiz...

sorry for the long break..

have had loads of nonsense happening recently...some good, some bad.

here's an update. details to come, maybe:

• going to bangkok with a loved one! shopping shopping and more shopping...hope this will be a good trip that brings us closer together. it's a make or break.
• had a huge quarrel with yenlin...still sad til now.
• cedrick's going to Hong Kong to work for 2yrs lor....feels kinda weird cos he's always there these 10years[so long already right?]; gotta get used to him not being there.
• finally made a break and stuck to it. hope this will be for the better for the both of us.

it's funny how suddenly, you jus realise who are all the pple that really care and stick by you no matter what. it feels great to be loved for me and who I am, no matter how fucked up I can be. with me not being ard most of the time, i realise who is the more important pple in my life, and who i miss the most.

there is someone now. but still not sure.
i guess i still need some time before i'm sure.


well, gotta go for flight already. back tonight. til then.

Later.