sad day

my friend commited suicide by jumping from the seventh storey of a multi storey carpark.



she struggled and passed away from multiple internal injuries; plus she hit her head and her brain was clogged with blood....her brain died an hour after the shock. her kidneys ruptured, and her bones were shattered.

she just turned 21.



i wish i knew her better.




we still dunno why she did what she did....
but it doesn't seem that she did what she did.


its weird.

Rest In Peace, Regine.

Shopping

I have the sudden urge to go to Bangkok on a shopping spree.

The beginning of a new journey

I'm back!

Osaka and Perth was great!
I met some really nice people and made many new friends.
wonder if we'll keep in contact or ever see each other again...

didn't buy much things, due to the short time there and also cos i didn't know where to go..
but i bought mostly food stuffs!

tidbits and crackers and chips and all haha!

will upload pics and give details soon!!

Busy Busy

The past few weeks have been a blur....yet it seems like so much time has passed.

I just completed my SEP training, with ongoing exams today and tomorrow.
It was only 6 days.

yet it seemed like 6 weeks.
i wonder why time seems to be moving so fast yet so slowly.


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sometimes i wish that i was still with HOTstuff, enjoying the bustle, stressing out over stressful things, deadlines and photoshoots.

sometimes i think back and i wished i did things in other ways, rather than how i reacted.

i suddenly don't feel like flying anymore.

but i miss my batch mates when they are not around.
i always feel so happy to see them, and i even wake in the weekend, missing classes.

crazy.


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apart from exams, we have to prepare a performance for our graduation.
which is a waste of ime, if you ask me.

with all the training and exams going on, who has time to plan and organise so many things!

and it doesn't help that the foreign crew are not very responsive, and expect the graduation to just form itself. I became chairman without my knowledge. and i tell you, it's a pain when you are facing this shit when you already have so much on your mind!

no thanks to kai and christine to keep pushing me to have some action.


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i think there might be something wrong with me.
i hate having my heart broken...it doesn't seem to heal properly.
maybe i'm just a horrible person that no one cares about.

i feel ugly.


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i think i need plastic surgery.


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my thoughts are so random hor.

i need more intellectual stimulation.