Back from The Cold Country

I'm back from Auckland.

I wanted to go out and drown my sorrows in a blissful afternoon of mindless money spending but i got too lazy to do it, like i have been recently.

after starting flying, all i want to do when i'm home is to drink endless mugs of sweet tea, play games and basically do nothing. even thinking about dressing up, putting on makeup to go out, makes me feel so tired! i mean, i miss hanging out with my friends, i miss responding to last minute calls for a night's out, i miss feeling gorgeous and feeling good about myself. I wonder if i will get that feeling again.

I have been making a detour down the well-trodden path of long ago. i'm sure yet still not sure; scared to fall again. scared to stop and look back and wonder again. i don't know if i want to do this or not.


i wish everything was clearer.

I want to buy a camera! Semi-SLR maybe? something not too big but takes good shots.


i want to take arty-farty pictures!!


I want to take pictures of lonely benches around the world!


any recommendations for a not too ex, not bad SLR-ry camera that i can buy?

是不是这样的夜晚你才会这样的想起我。。。

all served out

sorry for the lack of updates..

i've been so tired recently, that all my free time is dedicated to sleep, reading and playing games.
plus i have no idea where i put my card reader, so i can't upload any pictures lor.

am resting after a BKK turn yesterday, and will be going to Auckland tomorrow evening and back on sunday.

My roster for next month is not too bad, except that i have four turns and four full day standbys. So tiring! i got called up for a Columbo turn on my last standby and it was damn tiring loR!! the call lights went on like christmas lights and i didn't get any chance to rest for the whole trip! i just hope i dun get called up during Auckland cos I am on standby there too..

well, shall update soon ya?