Russell Peters

This guy is a genius!
I laughed my guts out.

Warning: Racial Jokes & Coarse References
don't watch if you are a wuss.

45mins of pure comedy.

Enjoy!

Crying Without Tears

A person once told me that crying without tears is the worst form of crying. And they were right- because the weeping of the soul hurts so much more and no one can console you because no one can see, and even if they can they do not reach its tremendous depth.

This is a tribute to all those who have felt the anguish of tearless sobs and broken spirits. May God guide you through it, and may those you love be there for you when the tears start to fall and every moment after.

“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” - Kahlil Gibran

Extrcted from http://www.flickr.com/photos/aphrodite/84987452/

True Love?

Saw this article in http://kidpieces.wordpress.com/2007/07/22/true-love/.

its great. Read it and think.

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TRUE LOVE

In most cases we think: this is true love, when in fact it’s not. But than if this ain’t love than what it is? There are plenty of things that we confuse with love.

It could be just the basic instinct. The feelings can be passionate and crazy, but in fact both people may want only sex. And after it all the misunderstanding starts, and once infatuated lovers will find out that they have nothing in common and sometimes they don’t even know what to talk with each other.

Another variant is when people lack support, care and attention to their person or they just scared to stay single. Being with someone can be a habit when one simply got used to the other. It can either be a sick addiction or some self-interest. People call all these types of relationship love just by mistake or trying to conceal the true nature of it.

But than what does real love look and feel like? Maybe it’s when two people seem to know each other for ages and even in their previous lives. They can go on talking and talking and conversation never lacks topics and never gets dull. Or people don’t have to say anything because they understand each other without words. And those moments, minutes and even hours of silence are never uncomfortable. True love is when partners complete one another, when they’re together it’s peaceful, the whole other world with it’s sufferings and problems doesn’t exist and nothing even matters.

True love means understanding. One trusts another more than him/herself and feels ready to satisfy every little need of a partner. Two people don’t stop for a second looking into each other eyes.

It’s said that two persons truly in love aren’t looking at each other but in the one direction. And this is rather reasonable because they don’t say nothing “this is yours and this is mine” and share everything: friends, enemies, interests, problems and etc. One has his/her own identity but sees him/herself only as a part of the other. Still real love is not a relationship of property. If you really love someone you may say “I belong you” but always be ready to let go if it makes the person you love happy.

Jealousy stands out of the true love. How can one be jealous if there’s so much love and faithfulness? Real love doesn’t long for power, it doesn’t want to hurt, doesn’t want to punish for mistakes, it’s self-sacrificing and ready to forgive other and other again. But it’s wrong to think that true love is always a suffering, it only means that you take a person as he or she is and don’t expect the one you love to be perfect.

True love isn’t supposed to blow your mind, yet it doesn’t tend to get and to possess – it’s a and very special state of a soul.But the question that true love is still has no definite answer. Do we truly love only once in our life? At what age are we supposed to meet our love? Does it last for a lifetime or just for a while? Probably everyone has his own answers to this questions. The truth is that no one should spend life chasing ideals or building relationships by some model of a true love. One will probably fail and miss the real thing beyond all this.

We should remember that very many things we need to supply our healthy and comfortable living but only the true feeling of love makes life really longer and happier.

sad fact

I have found the paradox; if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.


Life is so ironic, isn't it?

Hugh Grant And Haley Bennett - Way Back Into Love

I think this song is wonderfully soothing.

And touches the heart with its simplicity.

Enjoy

Way Back Into Love
- Hugh Grant And Haley Bennett [OST of Music & Lyrics]

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do
is find a way back into love
I can't make it through
without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do
is find a way back into love
I can't make it through
without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do
is find a way back into love
I can't make it through
without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Kiss - Because I'm A Girl

i always cry when i watch this.

unrequited love? guys always never realise.

i wonder who would love me enough to make that sacrifice for me.

would it be too late then.

WedsSport SA-70

My favourite rim of all time.
fell in love when i first set eyes on it.

prefer deep-dish, but this is just gorgeous.



ironically, the chaser uses it.

if i ever get a car, these would be my choice, for more reasons than one.

Freaky Friday

Just thought I needed a post on Friday the 13th.


I have always been fascinated by superstitions.
But for some weird reasons, Friday the 13th, deemed the most unlucky day in the western world, has always been a good day for me.


and this one is no different. =)



I guess just one good encounter would be sufficient to make the whole day rosy.
Prune.

Harry Potter Final Facts

Just surfed Wikipedia which answered all the question marks about Harry Potter.

Sort of ties up all the loose ends ya?

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In an interview, online chat, the Wizard of the Month section of her website, and during her 2007 U.S. Open Book Tour, Rowling revealed additional character information that she chose not to include in the book.

She stated that:

• Harry becomes an Auror for the Ministry of Magic, and is later appointed head of the department. He keeps Sirius's motorcycle, which Arthur Weasley repaired for him, but he can no longer speak Parseltongue after the destruction of Voldemort's soul fragment within him.
• Ginny Weasley plays for the Holyhead Harpies Quidditch team for a time, leaves to establish a family with Harry and later becomes the lead Quidditch correspondent for the Daily Prophet.
• Ron Weasley works at George's store for a time, Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes, then joins Harry as an Auror.
• Hermione finds her parents in Australia and removes the memory modification charm she had put on them for safety. She initially works for the Ministry of Magic in the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures, greatly improving life for house elves and their ilk. She later moves to the Department of Magical Law Enforcement and assists in eradicating oppressive, pro-pureblood laws. She was also the only member of the trio to go back and complete her seventh year at Hogwarts.
• Dumbledore's relationship with Gellert Grindelwald extended beyond mere friendship; indeed, Rowling has revealed that "Dumbledore is gay, actually", and harboured romantic feelings for Grindelwald.
• After his death, Voldemort is forced to exist in the stunted form Harry witnessed in the King's Cross limbo; his crimes were too severe for him to become a ghost.

Rowling also explained the fates of several secondary characters:

• George Weasley continues his successful joke shop. George married fellow Quidditch player Angelina Johnson and has two children: a son named Fred, in memory of his late twin brother, and a daughter, Roxanne.
• Luna Lovegood searches the world for odd and unique creatures. She eventually marries Rolf, a grandson of the famed naturalist Newt Scamander, writer of Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them. They have twins called Lorcan and Lysander. Her father's publication, The Quibbler, has returned to its usual condition of "advanced lunacy" and is appreciated for its unintentional humour.
• Draco Malfoy married Astoria Greengrass and had a son named Scorpius.
• Percy Weasley married a woman named Audrey and had two daughters, named Molly and Lucy.
• Firenze is welcomed back into his herd, who finally acknowledge the virtue of his pro-human leanings.
• Dolores Umbridge is arrested, interrogated, and imprisoned for crimes against Muggle-borns. The amount of time she serves in prison is unknown.
• Cho Chang went on to marry a Muggle.
• Neville Longbottom becomes professor of Herbology at Hogwarts and marries Hannah Abbott, who is now the landlady of the Leaky Cauldron.
• Besides Victoire Weasley, Bill and Fleur Weasley have a younger son and a younger daughter, named Dominique and Louis.
• On her website, Rowling posted a Weasley family tree, showing that Harry's children's full names are James Sirius Potter, Albus Severus Potter, and Lily Luna Potter.

There have been transformations in the wider wizarding world:

• Kingsley Shacklebolt is the permanent Minister of Magic, with Percy Weasley working under him as a high official. Among the reforms introduced by Shacklebolt, Azkaban no longer uses Dementors. Consequently, the world is now a "much sunnier place". Harry, Ron, and Hermione have also been instrumental in reforming the Ministry.
• At Hogwarts, Slytherin House has become more diluted and is no longer the pure-blood bastion it once was, although its dark reputation lingers.
• Voldemort's jinx on the Defense Against the Dark Arts position is broken with his death. There is now a permanent Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher. Harry comes to the Defense Against the Dark Arts class to lecture several times a year.
• A portrait of Snape, who briefly served as Hogwarts Headmaster, does not appear in the headmaster's office as he abandoned his post. Harry ensures the addition of Snape's portrait, and publicly reveals Snape's true allegiance.

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OHMIGOD....Dumbledore is GAY.

I love it when my questions are answered, don't you?

Kung Fu Panda

Have been wanting to catch this like forever.

Went to watch it last week and it made me laugh like i've not laughed in a long time!

its hilarious, touching, full of chinese customs fused with western influences.

for that two hours, i really laughed my heart out.

It was great.

You just HAVE to watch this.
Trust me on this one.

two days mc

have been sick since monday.
guess more of tired of work and needed a break.

was throwing up the whole of yesterday.
even water can't stay down!
So thirsty but cannot drink, hungry but cannot eat.
not even the porridge could stay down.



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"Feeling alone and misunderstood? You don't need to have a significant other to feel appreciated. You are loved by friends and family more than you realise."

My horoscope for today.

I am loved, and i feel loved.
By friends, by family, and by a significant other.


maybe my extinguished light is slowly sparking again.

sometimes not thinking so much helps.



sometimes just accepting the simple and brief happy encounters that life offers, is more than enough.

Pretenders - I'll Stand By You

I love this song.

Close your eyes, listen to the lyrics and immerse yourself in the meaning of the song.

Darling, from me to you.




I'll Stand By You
Artist(Band):Pretenders

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

wishes

the fog in my mind has cleared slightly.

i guess all along i knew the outcome, and what was actually happening.
i just blinded myself in a haze of emotions, hoping that what I wished for would come to pass, that the promises made were true and would happen.

we both did wrongs, darling, but i was true; truer than I have been to anybody in a long time.


too bad you couldn't see it.


now i know where i stand.




too bad i couldn't stop myself from falling.

a note to my beloved

darling,

you have been absent for so long.

i love you so much.....but....



.....i'm starting to get used to you not being around.
I don't want that to happen!


Don't make me a stranger.


Love,
Melissa

how can u say u love when you don't show love at all?

ugly me

just got my recent photos from huiqi...

i look terrible!


i wish i was photogenic.

my face sucks, my features are crooked, i need to lose weight, my hands and my legs are of a different shade due to my hours under the sun for work, my hair is so dry, everything sucks.

even photoshop can't help me now.


my self-esteem has reached an all-time low.
i don't feel loved. i feel so ugly.
i hate myself.

i wish......




i'm so tired.

giving up?

i was so so ready to give up.
so so ready to let it all go to preserve my sanity.

after letting go, i cried and cried...
wondering why? why didn't i matter at all?
all the effort, the tears....wasted.

then i wondered, why did i do that when i didn't really want to let go?
i guess i was giving it one last shot of faith that he would actually realise.



instead i got a question mark answer.


i don't want to think anymore.


i'm going crazy soon.


can you just tell me what is going on?
can you just give me a direct answer for once?!?!


*faint*

Clearer Mind

Recently feel much better...still thinking about it, but much better.

he is weird...how can you say you love someone but eliminate the person from your life?

Makes no sense whatsoever.

Shouldn't it be that if you care about someone you would want to call, or sms or be with the person everyday, as often as you can? It hurts me...


I don't believe much anymore.

The bigger the hope, the bigger the disappointment.


I can't handle anymore disappointment.

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i feel like getting away from all this, change a new environment.

He is still in my mind, but I guess I just don't want to have the hope anymore when he obviously doesn't treasure me.

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i might be trying out for SQ this month.

I think its a tad bimbo-ish, but i would savour in the experience.
It's not an easy job, nor a very difficult one.
I guess its a different kind of learning experience altogether.


Maybe I just want to leave everything behind, to start afresh.




Well, we'll see if there's any improvement.

if he wants me, he has to get me back.

It's time for WAR!

Just came back from a gruelling paintball session with my colleagues.

After the first round, I felt like I was going to faint!
That goes to show how unfit I was....the only consolation was that I wasn't the only one.

My gun kept jamming....so I was out of action many times.

now my whole body aches like hell.
standing up and walking is a torture!


Will update when I get the pictures.

...and we're back to square one

i'm so tired.

i don't want to be the spare.


i don't want to be the one that he falls back on.



i want a simple life and a stable relationship with the one i love that loves me.
Only me.

lonely saturday

got woken up at 10plus by a anonymous call.


and it was such good weather to sleep too.


wonder who it was?

once i woke memories came flooding back in my mind
couldn't sleep anymore.


i wish it was him.

mystery

had a bag of my favourite chips hanging at my door.

a note, with the words: " For: Melissa "



was it you darling?

so tired...

my eyes are closing.

so tired having to come to office after yesterday's exhausting trip.
had to drag myself out of bed.

today IMPORTrides need to be proofread before sending out for print.
I have articles to edit by today to be able to meet the deadline.
magazine has arrived, need to help with the subscription postings.

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it doesn't help that my mind keeps wondering away.
he just keeps popping into my mind.

my heart has a jab of pain everytime it happens.

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do i really not matter anymore, darling?


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I have to try to get through each day.
trying to create activities to take up my time.

meeting my classmates for dinner later...
they will sure ask me why he never join us.
i have to be reminded again when i'm trying to forget.


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i just want a simple life.



but my life consists of episode after episode of drama.
when everything seems to be going right, something will happen to make it wrong again.
I can never be happy.


I simply want to be happy.
Is that really so hard?

exhausted

i'm back from the Porsche event.
it was tiring but really fun!
will elaborate when i get the pictures.

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with all the flurry yesterday, i felt much better, as i didnt have much time to think about him.
he did appear in my mind lots; but i pushed the memories away.

i was thinking, that i shouldn't have behaved the way i did the other night.
should have controlled my emotions.
but i was too hurt and disappointed to do so..

his silence cuts through my soul and i hurt every second....but he will never know it.
i will never be his first priority.


as long as he is happy.

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watched Sex and the City the other night.
yoohoo story of my life.

i could feel the sadness streaming through me. i was trying to hold the tears in but i couldn't.

its all so familiar...so so familiar...


charging up memories that i tried so hard to forget.


i wanna watch it again. it helps me cry.

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i will try to get on with my life.


everything happens for a reason i guess.



i can just hope.....and pray.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. And now faith, hope, and love abide, but the greatest of these is love."

1 Corinthians. 13:4-13

I love you, my prune.

Porsche Charity Track Day

I have to go to Sepang for a Porsche event tomorrow.

First time to an event overseas alone, armed with a camera I have no idea how to use, a whole list of things I need to do and heavy magazines that I have to lug around.

I think it might be fun, as its my first time on the track, to have the first look at the new 911 GT3 RSR first ever test run, and to be driven around in the 911 GT3 Cup Cars by the cup drivers. All the while carrying the magazines and that stupid camera.

I have to be at Porsche Centre, Sungei Kadut at 6am tomorrow morning, to be ferried to Sepang [hope i get some sleep]. The event lasts the whole day and ETA in Singapore is 10pm.

I'm gonna be so fucking tired. Wonder if I can come into work later on Friday morning.


The worst thing is, I have to smile and pretend I'm ok.


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Every few seconds, you pop in my head; everything I do, I am reminded of you.
Everywhere I look, I see you. Do you see me?


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Sex and the City

Its finally out. After waiting for so long.

Have been looking forward to the movie, and wanted to recap all my series to be better prepared for the ending. and was planning to watch it with a certain someone....

well....

i shall watch it soon. Hope it makes me laugh.

p.s can't think of anything witty to say.

mopey mood

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come back when you are done.
i can't live without you.

do you feel the same way?

will you ever feel the same way?


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....and the world comes crumbling down

he is so selfish.

disregarding my feelings, not bothering how i would feel.
what kind of compromise is that?


i'm so tired.


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my heart bleeds.

but life still goes on.


with or without him.


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i am not a place to fall-back on.
no matter how much i love him, it's time to think for myself instead, to save whatever dignity i have left.



if he really feels what he said he feels, if he's ever coming back, he'd have to work for it.
it's time he showed me that I matter, rather than empty words.
lies, all lies..

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darling, why?

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i'm not gonna get hurt anymore.

hurdle after hurdle

"The virtue of true love is not finding the perfect person, but
loving an imperfect person perfectly."

After going through so much, we still managed to stick together.

Now, as we face yet another obstacle, i pray that it would be ok.

Is this a sign? That its not meant to be?

Or is it a test by Him, to make our love stronger; to make us stronger.

well, if its meant to be, it will be.

God has a plan.

Sunshine through my window

so many obstacles, so many misunderstandings.
forgiven, forgotten.
with love to lead the way.

with God to shine the light on the path out of darkness.


Now i am finally walking the path, with you.


don't let me down, darling.

hurt

he said i should have called...

i should have.
i guess i was just stupid to wait and hope that he wouldn't do anything wrong.
is it wrong to try and trust someone.

can't he see i love him so much?
can't he see that i really want to be with him?

i wait on stupidly, against everything that happened, against all protests.

can't he just fucking trust me?!?!



when i finally love someone so much, he has to do this.
when i finally give up everything else, he cast me away.


i feel like breaking down; i have to smile and pretend nothing's wrong.



i feel like dying.
my heart's dead already.


darling please trust me.
Please don't leave.

in agony

i am in pain.

the whole of today moping around home, not knowing what to do or where to go.
all the time wondering why? why does he do what he does?
why did he have to do the same thing again, without thinking about how i felt?
why, when everything was going fine?

suddenly i realise, this is the end.
i don't mean enough.
i cant help but have the hope, cos i really care so much about him.

but...i am not his first priority.

what i want is simple: someone whom i love who loves me back.
whose first priority is me, who has me on his mind every minute;
someone who trusts me and my love, who is honest and true to me.
who can't live without me, who will reject all other advances, as he loves only me.

i want to make him laugh, share his problems, go through the ups and downs together.
we can have fun together, be silly together, have a connection that no one can penetrate.


he doesn't seem to realise i have feelings, and hurts me over and over.
i just want him to stop being so mean, and believe in me.
i want to feel the security and love.
i wish the silence would stop.




i want an answer.

heartbreak

i can't believe he did that....
with no consideration for my feelings.

i hurt so badly inside.
its like a knife being plunged repeatedly into my heart, and being dragged all over.

i am trying so hard, but he is not doing his part.

darling, don't you care about me at all?

i endure everything that comes my way. but i hurt.
i'm human too you know.

how would you feel if i did the same thing to you.
would you trust me? could you trust me?


i don't know how much more can i take.
i will try....but i hope to see some effort from the other side also....



love hurts.
i am so sad.

Colour the iPhone

As much as I am in love with my iPhone, I shudder everytime I see the scratched cover with its battle scars. (my fault; dropped it 4 times), not to mention the fingerprinted screen (i don't work well with smooth surfaces) and peeling ends of the screen protector (i always get things scratched). I would like to change the cover.

I try my best to maintain it, but the powder on my face gets into the nooks and crannies, and the natural oils on the fingers(touchscreen phone) leaves its mark everywhere! And my well-known clumsiness....

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Anyway, that's out of the point.

I just went through The Apple Blog and saw this great new product!
ColorWare has just released their Customized ColorWare iPhone product.
You can send in your iPhone to get colorized for $149 (you’ll need to part ways with it for 8-10 days).

Or you can purchase a new iPhone at $649 for the 4GB or $749 for the 8GB.
They have 29 color combinations available.

Nice right?? I like!!

But can be done only in the US.



Damn.

Weekend Road Trip

Just came back from the weekend trip to Malaysia with my colleagues.

so tired but it was good bonding.
quite fun, but not very.

my colleagues are a great bunch, gonna miss those that are planning to leave.
difficult to find a whole group of pple that work together as a team with no politics or backstabbing.

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had some time to think....about him.

had great reminders throughout the trip.
am more in love now, but painfully. But so much, so much deeper.

do you feel so too, my darling?

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will give more details of the trip when i get pictures from them.

heartbreak..and mends...and breaks again

haven't had the mood nor the time to do much.

have been drinking lots recently, wanting company but preferring to be alone.
because the company i crave is the one that doesn't appear.

day and night, every second of the day, his face plays over and over in my mind, like a broken record.
my heart aches whenever i go past places we've been, bringing back memories of things we have done before.

reading through his messages over and over....reminiscing, smiling to myself.

i am not me anymore.
the old melissa would have moved on long ago.
the old melissa would have given up.

after everything, i still hold on to the hope.
I know its right, it feels right.
i truely believe that I am not stupid, although sometimes i feel like a fool.

dun ask me to give up, dun try to make me change my mind.
i will hate anyone who does that.
go away and leave me alone.


i know what i want. i know he loves me.
This whole relationship has met with obstacles after obstacles.
There's so much more we have to go through together.
But surprising we still held on.


so this is love. but it's full of question marks.

if only

shattered dreams

i got ditched again...

the worse thing is that i really really liked him.
after so long, i finally had such strong feelings for someone.



but he lied to me.

and i keep believing him, just to be disappointed again.


i feel like a fool, holding on to the hope.





i'm so tired.

new new!!

i have new gadgets!

dun get the wrong idea yet...i'm horribly broke at this moment, trying to make a two-digit balance bank account last til payday, which is on the 7th...which is unfortunately almost two weeks from now.

my last pay was to pay off the Tokyo, what i bought for tokyo, my handphone bills and what i owed my mother.

so i'm officially broke.

but suddenly i have two new gadgets, thanks to my daddy!

firstly, i got a Sony PSP Slim!

apparantly he got it cheap. i don't care! it's free and it's mine!!!

i really wanted red. but they didn't have stock. so i chose white instead.

kinda common, but i figured i could always zhng my PSP with stickers or i could spray it.

next, my dad passed me the iPhone!

at first i just wanted to play with it for the day.

then after much trouble for the whole day, i told my dad it was not user-friendly, with no MMS, redundant BlueTooth that can't send or receive pics or songs, no sms forwarding...not to mention the small buttons, and the difficulty in using it. and me being so clumsy, i was so afraid i would scratch it!

Then i said but if he give me i take lah.

then he said ok lor.

-_-

i got a shock! cos i wasn't really thinking about changing my mobile phone.

then my dad already told the guy who originally wanted to buy that iPhone that I wanted it.

so i was stuck with it! *pengz*

worst thing, i found out about all the faults after that!

but now, after two days of using the phone i got stuck with, i fell in love.

firstly, its still quite rare, so i took to holding it in my hands whenever i go out in public. I feel like a mini-celebrity as people recognise the gadget in my hands and go "Wah, iPhone ah!!!"

secondly, i discovered the world of third-party application downloads. Enough said.

i am a happy girl. =)

tired...

My horoscope today says:

Worrying about unplanned obstacles is a waste of time. Appreciate the time you have now as a couple, or work together as a team to overcome problems as they arise, not before.

hmm...i guess that's quite true ya?
i do tend to keep thinking of the negative side of stuff...


anyway just went through yet another production period..
but this time, we were sort of production-ing the whole freaking month.


i really feel like getting away and taking a break.
but....work still goes on.



so tired.

shattered dreams

have you ever felt so low that nothing in the world would make it right?
I have.

have you ever cared about somebody so much it made you cry?
I have.

have you ever missed someone so much you can't sleep at night?
I have.

have you ever given up everything, just to be with someone?
I have.

have you ever found out something that makes the tears just flow non-stop?
I have.

have you ever just spent the whole day sitting there, staring into space, feeling your heart break over and over?
I have.

have you ever thought you found the One and gave up everything, just to try?
I have.

have you ever felt your heart break and heard all the shattered pieces scatter?
I have.

have you ever cried till you can't cry no more, but you still hurt?
I have.

have you ever felt the pain of giving someone you care about up, when you really don't want to at all, just so that others would be happy?
I have.



and all in one day.




i hurt.

sleepy tuesday

i'm in the office of hell, with a mountain-load of work piling up, and no mood to do it.

i'm so sleepy and tired, with a backache. It doesn't help that i feel so grumpy today.

i want to go home.


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hey, have you ever thought that there's a particular person in this world, that is The One?

someone that, doesn't matter how long you know each other, you just know that you want to be with that person, just directly abduct them and make them marry you, to live happily ever after?

someone whose faults you can live with, whom you can list the things that you love about them, and you just know that it is almost perfect?

someone who you are genuinely happy with, no matter what?

I believe.


Just that maybe.................. I don't think i will be able to meet with that person in this life.




Let's hope i'm wrong ya?